Kicking Bad Habits

So I'm sitting here watching 28 days, and I got to thinking. I've never had a drinking problem (I personally hate feeling drunk), and I've always been scared to experiment with drugs. Hell, I was 25 before I even tried weed for the 1st time. But I did have one bad habit thanks to my ex. Well I guess I can't even blame him. It started in HS. I smoked black and milds to fit in with my friends. But, it wasn't an everyday occurrence, or an every week occurrence. I only did it to fit in.

I remember when I took my 1st hit on a clove. It was 2005 and I was chilling at my apt with my boyfriend and my 2 homegirls. We were playing spades, and my boyfriend decided to make a run to the liquor store. I asked him to pick me up a pack of black and milds while he was out. He came back with liquor for the group, black and milds for me and a pack of cloves for himself. I had no idea what cloves were at the time, but he told me to try one because they were smoother than black and milds. I did and they were. From that point on I couldn't smoke black and milds any more. It just wasn't the same. At first I only smoked when he and I were together. We would take long drives and smoke. Then I would smoke when I was extremely stressed. Then it progressed to when I was driving.

Then it all came to an abrupt stop when I found out I was pregnant, but after I lost my baby the habit came back with a vengeance. Still I would only smoke when driving and if I got stressed then I would chain smoke. I've tried to stop before and it'll last until I got stressed out and then I would start again. I always knew that I could kick the habit, because there were times when I had to choose between putting gas in my car and smoking, and of course gas won.

So I said when I moved to Chicago that I would stop all together, and now thanks to Obama I HAVE to. He banned the sale of cloves in the US, and I'd have to buy them from India to get them anyway. So its been 25 days, and I haven't even had the urge to smoke. I have been tempted to buy a box from India, but I haven't seriously considered it. I got super stressed and even then the urge didn't hit me. So I think that I've kicked my habit. The true test will be when I go home for Thanksgiving. I'm sure I'll hang out with my smoking buddy, and I'm sure he's ordered a box or two from India. I hope I can resist the temptation!