Unconditional Me

What does it mean to love unconditionally? What does it mean to love someone with no regard? Who in their right mind still does this? I must say that I am guilty, for I know no other way to love. Call me emotional and irrational, but I can't love someone with strings attached. I love someone completely and indefinitely. Not too many people are willing to give so freely of themselves, but who am I to devoid others of true love? Who am I to keep people from experiencing what it is like to have someone be there for you at your lowest and love you through your shit? But what is in it for me?

Thats just it. In unconditional love it is not about the giver. While everyone wants to be loved in return, I don't love looking for love in return. I love because that is who I am. Yes, it would be great to have someone love me unconditionally, but I live in the real world not a fairy tale. So, I settle. Yeah I said it...I settle...for whatever love I deem acceptable.

I believe this may be my biggest flaw. I have been told that no man (this term is being used loosely to define human beings) is deserving of this type of love, and that it should be reserved for God only. But who am I to deny someone love. I guess I have to thank God for giving me the strength to deal with the tremendous amount of pain that comes along with this. Most of the time I am able to heal and recover from the hurt that is caused when God says that someone is no longer worthy of the love that I have given them. But sometimes the pain gets heavy and I want to give up. Yet God heals me and allows me to love unconditionally again. Not taking the scars and the baggage from my previous experience into the next.