On My Mind 6-29-07

Its funny how one...hmmm what can I call it...period of time...can change a relationship, potential relationship, friendship...or any type of ship for that matter. This period of time can be good, bad or neither. Either way it goes, it changed things, I somehow I wish that things were how they were before this period of time passed. I don't regret the period of time, and I don't wish that I could take it back or change it. I just wish that it wouldn't have changed things. I liked the path that we were on before it happened, I was really feeling it. Now I'm stuck here with things on my mind that I can't say to you and I can't put to paper. So they stay in my head rambling around, and when I actually get some free time away from the stress of the day...I think about them, and I think about you and that period of time that changed everything. Sometimes I let the thoughts consume me, and I drift off to sleep and actually dream about whatever it is I am thinking. Sometimes I just sit there...where ever there is...and daydream. Sometimes I use the thought about that period of time to make me smile...to take away the stress of whatever else is going on in my life. Sometimes I use it to make me cry because I'm sad and I just need to get it out. But, whatever I need it for...it is always there...the memory of that period of time...the mark that you left on my life.

I know some of you reading this are like what the fuck....what is she talking about...who is she talking about. 9 times out of 10 I am talking about you. Just think back to a period of time...a time that could have changed how we interact with each other, and if you can think of one, then yeah I'm talking to you...if not, you are one of the few who haven't left your mark on my life.