Mixed Emotions 7-6-07

I woke up this morning feeling some kinda way...not depressed, not sad...maybe melancholy. I should have known it was coming after yesterday morning. See yesterday I woke up and I cried, not because I was sad, not because I was hurt, but because it finally hit me that it is really over. For a while I thought something was wrong with me. I was happy and going on with my life as if a major life change had not happened, but it finally sank in yesterday and I cried. I'm still not really sad. It is for the best.

I also had a very confusing conversation yesterday. I'm still not really understanding it, but I'm done trying. I know that its going to take time and patience to fully understand, and once again I'm willing to go the distance. Its funny how women are...resilient and steadfast...even in the face of adversity. I guess that is kinda what I felt from the conversation...adversity, but that wasn't my cue to give up. Women speak a different language, so I guess in essence what was said is true. I have to "translate" what was said to me in order for it to make sense. Doesn't change how I feel right now though. Maybe I will spend the day deep in thought, maybe I will brush it off (knowing me I will do the former). I just can't let this get me off of my cloud. My head has been in the sky for the past couple of days and I've been loving it. I can't wait until next weekend...things will be back to normal!